First star I see tonight.

Of love, and the inspidity that follows, thereafter

There are times when I am serious, and this is one of them.

Here are the facts:

1)My feelings, remain unchanged- So I'm just going to live with it- and wait upon the Lord.

2) It's really hard to be joyful when you took "an arrow to your knee"

Really.

Even the best worship music/upbeat instrumental can't permenently alleviate the angst of pain.

God bless those poor adventurers in skyrim.

(There I go again, I always find something humourous even when I'm suffering /bangheadonwall)

Can you believe that I laughed at my unfortunate predicament 10 seconds after it happened?

It turned to cries of pain though, that was not funny.

How long more, must I endure this?

I quit.

ICEB a S, or a W, or a F

Not like I ever wanted to be one, anyway :/

/cheery grin

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Temporal Conclusion after intense social observation:

50% of men are egocentric- (A significant proportion of them turn gay, the rest become smooth-talkin flirts who usually end up with a really plain partner/ a promiscuous partner)

(The other 30% are relegated to the friendzone- and usually end up with women who are inferior to themselves, socially, physically, and looks-wise

There is the rare exception who actually gets what he wants, because he simply treasures what he has)

*20% of men put the LORD first in all aspects, and are thus not subject to the three categories at all- since their paths are directed by He who Dwelleth Above.

Men tend to put lust above love

It takes a truly rare man to not care about appearances, contrary to what everyone says /sarcasticeyerollatallthosewhotriedtodeceiveme

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This is a warning to all ye gullible females out there:

If you find yourself chasing after a man endlessly- despite all your attempts at seduction, making yourself pretty, beautifying yourself for him, perfectizing your physicality for him- and he is half interested half not interested in you?

And, you see him in the company of other girlfriends who are all prettier, more physically attractive then you?

You are being manipulated.

(A.K.A- you are the potential wife-to-be- who has to endure all the potential womanizing -of course, flirts say that they're justttt talking- but tempt one's flesh enough, and guess what happens? Nuff Said- that goes on in the meantime)

Get Out! Pronto.

This is the reason why lesbianism was quite attractive to myself, frankly- but I'm just not meant for it (LORD, you know all things)

*If a man puts the LORD first, the LORD will guide his steps.

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100% of women are emotional- governed by their emotions;- when they truly fall in love (it's just a matter of whether they express it out, or not)

These can broken down into bitches, sluts, nerds, the cool-chick, the Christian good girl, the diva, the workaholic, the silent one, the talkative one, etc, etc)

Women tend to believe that lust is a requirement for love

As such, many women eventually take (like a piece of meat, again, oh God) an inferior man (in terms of intellect) so that they are able to manipulate him because they do not trust men in general.

(Was very tempted by this option a few times in NUS- but I just couldn't bring myself to do it because my heart was elsewhere, and I still value my guy friends very, very much, as brothers)

And there are some women who love to control men- oh good Lord.

I'm a traditionalist- I believe in the man taking control, because it's just.. the way I am

I'd rather follow, instead of lead

In fact, I loathe leading.

I wish I was extremely gu niang, at times- so that I would be happy
Ignorance is bliss, but I was born with this intellect- which is a half curse, half blessing.

*If a woman puts the LORD first in all aspects, she is not subject to emotional bondage, at all, and she will have to give up her manipulative ways

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This is a word of warning to all you gullible males out there

The best manipulator is the female who can skillfully manipulate you into falling in love with her- and you find yourself crawling like a puppy behind her?

Like a piece of meat, to be dangled and thrown away?

A dog, kneeling before her every whim?

Yup, you're one of her victims, God bless Ye.

What are you doing?? Scamper like Joseph. NOW.

Conclusion: Men do not understand women, (and vice versa)- both ought to endeavour to understand their other halves if they

a) Desire to get the best possible lifelong wife/husband for themselves

b) Don't intend to turn gay/lesbian

And remember this: Know thyself, and thy capabilities.

I ought to back this up someday.

And when in doubt- always remember this:

Humour saves lives (and relationships). ^^

Love endures through all circumstances- but if the long-suffering women/men has had enough- quit, I say, quit!

Honest truth: I truly do believe that the flesh of men are innate beastial beings who are filled with lust, and that the flesh of women (self included) is really very hard to comprehend- unless they happen to be very expressive (like self)- and we are also filled with lust

For the third time, I will say no more- I do wish I could end my life painlessly, so that I won't be subject to any of this- but I am forced to live on, so what to do?

/suckthumb

Only other alternative avaliable? Put the LORD first.

Note: I speak not of love, because love can never be fully encapsulated in words, or quotes (although Shakespeare comes really, really, really close :D)

To be continued. (this shall be a lifelong sideproject of mine)

Entitled: "What the f-this vulgarity is extremely warranted here-uck is wrong with relationships in this lifetime of ours."